Letter to myself


//Left me in pain and now i feel nothing else//
I'm not going to write poem or a abstract about it. I'm it going to make it seem beautiful or romanticize the idea of heart breaking. It's not beautiful and it's not at all romantic. It hurts deep enough to get me to stop feeling. Today is one of those days when I don't feel like existing. And I'm not gonna sugar coat it, or say that I'm posting it to benefit you. No, I'm doing it for me. I'm not trying to be a poster kid for mental health and speaking out right now. I'm just being a human who wants to put it out there that she isn't okay and that's okay. I'm not trying to be inspiring anyone. I'm just embracing my truth and being me. I'm not afraid of emotions anymore,they're just another aspect of life. I feel nothing these days. Nothing goes deeper into my consciousness or experience.
Just one request, don't ask me what happened or anything like that. Don't try to console me or treat me any differently. Just let me be me. I exist. I feel. And I'm writing this for myself. And I'm gald I'm thinking about myself more now.
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If you read it till here, I appreciate you for caring enough. If you read it out of curiosity or whatever. I don't feel anything anyway.
- Ayushi Yadav 

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